Rainy Days and Pain

So, in this day of torrential downpours and achy knees, I am sitting in my office just pondering. I'm pondering how one post could change someone's point of view so drastically. I wonder what it would be like to finally have that massuer I keep buggin' my friends to find for me. I wonder what the results of my doctor's appointment will bring. I wonder about the impact of my decisions on people who barely know me. I wonder about the day when I no longer deal with injuries or sickness. I wonder if the amount of injuries and whether those are a testiment to the depth of which I live my life and the dedication they show to whatever I may have been doing at the time. I wonder about the missed opportunities in my life. I wonder about the times I've had my eyes closed when I should have kept them open. I wonder about the times I should have stayed in bed, and the times when I should have gotten out of bed earlier. I wonder about the friendships I've lost along the way. I wonder about hobbies that I should have kept at and sports I should have continued. I wonder about the "what if's" and the "maybe's" and realize that the life I have now is one that is the way it is because of what I have done.

I realize that the hobbies I have now I have because I didn't stop or give up. I realize that the person I am now is who I should be at this time, in this place. I realize that the people I know now are the ones I'm supposed to know right now. The things that I have right now are things that I've been given, and I just need to start and then continuously see them as such.