Leaving

So, the one male I turn to with my honest thoughts, and needs for male affection is leaving next week Tuesday. What can I say other than I'm crushed. I know he needs to move on with his life and that life here has almost killed him. We've had numerous talks of how this area is great but also bad because it's too easy to forget. *sighs* Well, he's leaving.... I'm stuck here with no close male friend to cuddle with or tell me when I look hot or just be a guy friend. He's been there to give me hugs when I need them. He's been there when I've needed entertainment. He's been there when I needed a date. He's... in a word, mine. Countless times people have asked if he and I were married; which of course we laughed at. :D We were supposed to go on a cruise together, we were supposed to go clubbing together.... but now, neither will ever happen. *groans* The void he'll leave will be substancial. I'll miss his points of view and his ability to carry on intelligent conversations. I'll miss his laugh, his humor.... I'll miss all there is to miss about him. I mean, he told me of his leaving... and then gave me the greatest mixed compliment ever. "You look like either a beach model or Cousin It." *sniffles* Man, I don't want to lose this one, but I have no choice. Heaven knows I can't go through losing another close friend like him. They are so rare for me. Even worse, I now don't really have a close friend. Sarah's on the fritz.... Emo is of course Emo, but there are things that I can only get from Reed. I guess, I should stop looking at the many depressing and negative things that I'm feeling now for his moving on and cling to the great things he and I have shared. Inside jokes, rough times and laughter. Reed, here's to your friendship and love. *tears fall* I'll miss you hon.