Holding Onto Vents

In my heart of heart, I'd like to think of myself as a secure person. I'd like to think of myself as strong and independant. Yet, I find myself feeling vulnerable and unsure. It's a weird position to be in.

I'm in the middle of an inner conflict where I want to embrace the vulnerability I'm feeling and reject it. My independant self wants nothing to do with the vulnerable side. My vulnerable side feels bad when the independant self exherts itself. It would be nice to have the two sides start to get along. Of course, in a perfect world these two, warring sides, would not exist.

It's a frustrating conflict of sides. I guess this is just another way for me to grow in life. Heh, and just when I thought I was beginning to get a handle on my emotions. Hooray for growth.