My Life in Drama Mode

So I guess it's only fitting for me to vent about work seeing as how that is my life right now. My vent is this: I'm stinkin' pissed at having people look down their noses at me. Seriously... do they freakin' think that I'm any less of a human than they are because our jobs are different? Holy crap!!! It's been annoying me for a little while now, I mean, I try not to step on toes at work, I respect those around me as best as I can, hell, I even go out of my way to make sure that they are okay if I have to "invade" their space. Yet, I still have one or two people who think that they are entitled to look down on me. HELL NO THEY AREN'T!!!!!!!!!!

The only people who could look down on me, don't. They respect me as a person, they don't seem to have a problem when people stop by to visit me, and you know what, I get my work done. Rarely do I do something poorly, and I'm always willing to improve things for it you know? I think I may have originally been okay with these people looking down on me, but I've been hearing that they're looking down on my friends who stop by. What? Why do they care? I get my frickin' work done. I'm usually in the office before they are, why are they complaining? Seriously and not only that, but they tend to be lazy too. I mean, if they were doing the same amount of work that I do, or more, I wouldn't care if they looked down on me so much because I could justify it and give them the benefit of the doubt, but the way things stand right now, I tend to think that Christopher has the right idea in wanting to get out and move on with his life.

The reason why I haven't just up and left myself is that I think I've found the person I've been looking for to marry. Of course, it's still way too early to know for sure, but we need time to find that out, and frankly, the experience that I've gained while working this job is precious. I've been learning how to do things that some graduate students study about. I mean, I've doing this thing, and loving life because of the great times that I spend doing it.

I wonder if people find it offensive that I won't go out of my way to carry on conversations with them at work. I mean, I'm a work oriented person, and no offense to anyone that reads this and ends up working with me later on in life, but I don't tend to make good friends with those that I work with. I rarely hang out with co-workers outside of the workplace. This is mainly because I need to have a break from work, and if I associate with co-workers outside of work, work almost always comes back up. And to be perfectly honest, I'd rather leave work at work when the clock strikes 5 pm and I clock out. It keeps me sane and gives me the opportunity to just let go of work. I mean, I love living with the people that I live with because they don't delve too much into work, nor do they....

The Lord said to love everyone and forgive all men their trespasses.... *sighs* This is something that I must work toward for I feel no love for the people at work that look down on me. I really don't. In fact, they could take a brick to the head right now for all I care, but I must change that. I've got to change that attitude, for I do not wish the Lord's condemnation on me. He, greater than I, ate with sinners. He associated himself with those who were social outcasts, and He even forgave those who did Him wrong. I will do all in my power to let go of this dislike and disgust that I feel toward them. Though they might not be in the right with what they're doing, I'm also not in the right in my feelings. I'm just as imperfect as they are... I'm glad that my ranting usually leads me to see where my fault is and takes out the steam from my anger and frustration.