No Matter How Down You Get, You Can Always Go Lower

So I'm living quite the colorful life right now. Never boring... seldom bland. Frequently depressing and miserable however. There is hardly a day that goes by where a new dramatic thing comes up which is fine... life would definately be boring if that were the case. However... I'm about ready for the bland, boring life for a little while. I'm ready for life where cars don't break down, where friends don't accuse me of lying and being the worst, most inconsiderate thing in life. There are maybe two people who cruise the blogger scene that know what I'm talking about and that's enough. I just hurt you know? I don't ever know what I do wrong until it's too late. When I hear of something that I did wrong, I'm given 24 hours or bust. I usually end up busting because, superhero though I think I am, it takes me a little while to make large changes. And why do I stay, you might be asking yourself? Well, superhero complex... I don't stay because I feel compelled to... I stay because I want to be friends with this person. I enjoy their company and they help me realize who I am. This is the person that I tend to open up to, despite a tiny voice in my head telling me that opening up is showing weakness.

Well... what to do, what to do.

Live is what I plan to do. I plan on making goals and achieving them. I plan on maintaining this friendship and letting this friend figure out for themselves where things are at. I'm planning on going to both jobs and enjoying them. I plan on living the Gospel to its fullest, and knowing that things will work themselves out. Heavenly Father knows what he's doing perfectly. I trust that knowledge. I also trust this phrase, "... be stil and know that I am God."

I think it 50 bazillion times a day and growing. :D